final countdown (to my classmates and my dear Lola)

Well, this is for you guys, quite an “informal” entry. I wanted to write something simple, without any kind of pressure, if you read it, that’s fine, if not, it’s fine too. At this time of the year I feel like a bottle about to explode. I’m not complete aware yet that this phase is coming to an end. I do not permit myself to cry, even if everything thrills me, I do not allow myself to show emotion. I know that it is wrong, but I know that if I start to cry, not with anguish but with amazement, I won’t stop. I haven’t got to the point of actually realizing that I’m not going to see you anymore, at least not with the frequency I do now. My life is going to give different twists from now on, and that’s fine, that’s OK, that’s how my life is supposed to be. I’m looking forward to it. I’m a person who need to be stimulated in every aspect, and if I that doesn’t happen, I have to make it happen. And by choosing one thing from two or three -because you can’t have it all- the other ones have to be left aside. That’s life, that’s the way it is. I love you guys, you have been my second family all these heavy, tiring, and wonderful years. You’ve helped me in ways you can not imagine, and make me wander about myself in ways you can not imagine. Anyway, the Twilight Zone of the Lola is coming to an end, at least for me. Indirectly, I have fulfilled some of my wishes during these years, like showing what I write, whether you like it or not, like speaking aloud in front of people -and with a mic-, and I have fulfilled the utmost wish of making a fool of myself, and make you laugh because you understand my phobias and “line of thought”…jaja…even teachers have learnt how to deal with my constant questions and inquiries. I’m that noisy because I WANT TO KEEP on learning. Sorry for being so naughty about my endless soliloquy, that’s my way of learning. kisses to all. Goobye, and good night.